30. Hey Past Me

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Hey past me,

If you could just see me now, you won't ever believe it's you.

A lot of things have changed, eh?

Your life, once painted only with basic colors, now's full to the brim, technicolor hues splashing around.

And yeah, don't despair, future you actually makes an effort in fixing yourself up. Great news, hm?

I don't want to spoil you, but just a tiny help, because I know you need it. You need to feel more love, I know it.

I'm familiar with all the demons haunting you, the floods drowning you, the shadows choking you, I know it all.

Been there, done that.

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But you know,

We did it.

So just hold on for a little longer.

Me? I'm still, sometimes, swept away by a gust of sorrowful wind

And my tears still sting like yours,

But what changed is that now, I know how to deal with it.

it it, you naive little child, I know more things than you. Not everything in the universe, but definitely more.

Ever heard of the eleventh hour? Yeah, you never did. But clue: just hang on tight, 'kay?

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Hey! Back then you hated languages

And never even took a second look at poetry.

Your artstyle was childish

And you absolutely despised responsibilities and adulting...although I bet you never knew what that was.

But look at me now, all those things I've come to love.

I'm still shy, yeah, but I have at least more confidence than you. Ha! I like making people happy, so it's okay if they laugh at me. Understand?

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Don't fear change.

It's natural.

And you know...

I think you actually changed a lot,

Like, you'll become better.

You don't know it yet, but just...spoiler alert...

(Oops, should've said that earlier.)

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