am I that wrong?✍🏻 || June Event

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..⃗.  𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙤 𑁍ࠜೄ ･ﾟˊˎ

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Hello everyone, I'm Laura and I'm back with a new blog for the #JuneEvent2020. I'm team Alison and this week's theme is sexuality change. We had to write a ff about our liar with a different sexuality. Since Alison is bisexual, I made a ff anout her being lesbian. Hope you'll like it :heartbeat: .

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..⃗.  𝙖𝙢 𝙄 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜 𑁍ࠜೄ ･ﾟˊˎ

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It was just a night like the others in the Dilaurentis house. Jessica and Kenneth were out of town for work and Jason was sleeping peacefully. There was just a light on: Alison wasn't in her dream, she was still awake sit on her bed, pen in her hand, writing on her little blue diary. It wasn't the first time. Those days she stayed awake till late to fill those blank pages with thoughts, pain and feelings...

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Dear diary,

It's always me, Ali. Nothing new, always the same pain, the same lies.

My heart is aching, full of thoughts, full of doubts, full of questions. Why has it to be that hard?

My heart is aching, but I'm not listening to it. Can I continue ignoring it forever? I wish I could.

My heart is aching but I'm fine. I've never felt so alive. I've never felt so lost.

My heart is aching but I'm happy. I love my life. But what is love? And what is life?

My heart is aching but there's nothing to soothe the pain. Can I resist?

My heart is aching and now I know the reason. It has a name but I can't say it out loud. I can't shout it from the rooftop. I can't show the world... I'm the Queen Bee, I can't.

Oh my lies. My mind is full. My life is full. My heart has to live with them. It can't stand them anymore. It can't stand pretending to be someone else. It can't stand pretending not to feel. It just can't.

Oh my heart. Please, stop. I can't tell the truth, you know that. I can't tell I'm not the person everyone thinks I am. How would they react?

Oh my girls. If you knew... I'm not Alison. I'm not the Queen Bee. I'm not the popular girl who wants to go out with any hot boy. I'd never been that person. I'm just a girl who tried to hide her feelings in the back of her mind. I'm just a girl who wants to be herself but can't. I'm just a girl who likes girls instead of boys. Is it that wrong? Am I that wrong?

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She closed the diary slowly, drying her tears away. She stood up silently, not wanting to wake up her brother, and hid her diary in the drawer under her clothes. She thought it was the perfect hiding, who could have looked under all that stuff? But maybe she wasn't that right after all...

With some music in her ears, Alison fell asleep soon after, with her mind finally free.

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The next day at school she was the same Queen Bee. With her feelings hidden by that fake smile, she slowly walked towards her group.

"Hey Ali!" Emily immediately greeted smiling, followed by the other girls.

Alison's heart skipped a beat. It always happens when her Emily smiles at her in that way. Does it mean something?

"My science exam is about to start, see you later!" Spencer said after looking at her clock and adjusting her glasses.

"Omg we have a science exam?!" Hanna almost shouted worried.

"Yeah Hanna... we do, com'on, I don't want to be late." Spencer replied rolling her eyes and leaving taking the blonde with her.

"I gotta go too." Aria said looking down. "I have to meet Mr. Fitz to talk about homework." She itted getting redder and redder.

Alison chuckled. "I didn't know 'homework' was a code word for 'sex'." She said smirking and making Aria feel even more uncomfortable.

"Ali!" Emily said hitting her arm playfully.

The blonde rolled her eyes. "Oh com'on Em, I was just having fun."

"See you at lunch!" Aria said leaving awkwardly.

"It's just the two of us then." Alison said smiling genuinely.

"Yup..." Emily replied looking around.

"Uh..." The blonde said looking at her phone. "I just got a text from Cece. I have to help her with something, gotta go." She said without paying attention at Emily's reply. She was already almost out of sight when she turned around. "Hey, what do you think about a sleepover at mine tonight? My parents are out of town and I don't want to be alone again." She said hopefully. She didn't know why but she wanted to spend as much time as possible with the brunette.

"Sure!" Emily replied grinning.

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The doorbell rang and Alison ran fast down the stairs. Her heart was beating fast... "but why?" she was wondering.

"Hey!" Em greeted going into the Dilaurentis's house.

"Hey!" Alison replied grinning.

And they spent their night as they were used to. Movies, popcorns and laughs.

"What? I'm totally not like Regina." Alison said chuckling trying to pretend to be mad.

"You are!" Emily continued, laughing laid with her head in Alison's lap. She looked at her faked mad face and laughed even harder. "You're cute when you're mad." She said when she could finally breathe again.

Alison's heart stopped. Something hit her. And that something had a name. "Love".

"We should go to sleep. I don't want to look like a zombie at school tomorrow." The blonde said getting up and leaving Emily with a confused gaze. "O-ok." She replied following the blonde. "A-Ali, I think I forgot my pyjamas at home." She said looking down ashamed after looking for it for a long minute in her bag.

"Don't worry Em, you can borrow one of mine. Just look in the first drawer." She said nonchalantly while going to the bathroom to change in her own pyjamas.

"Did you find one?" She asked while going back into her room. She stopped as soon as she saw the brunette with her diary in her hands.

"Is it true? You like girls?" Emily asked serious.

"I-I" Words stucked in her throat. Her most hidden secret was out and she felt like all those walls she built were cracking to the ground.

Emily was still looking at her puzzled, with her eyebrows frowned.

The blonde took a deep breath. It was Emily after all. Her Emily. The most loyal person she knew. The person she trusted more. The person she loved.

"It is." She said looking down ashamed.

"A-Ali, you know we love you no matters what, right?" The brunette asked moving closer to her with her heart beating fast. The girls knew Emily liked girls more than boys, even if she never actually came out. And everyone could notice how she looked at Alison with eyes full of love... well apart from Alison.

Alison just smiled, feeling immediately better. "Thank you, Em." She just said. They looked into each other eyes smiling for an endless time. They knew what that gaze meant. They knew they loved each other. Maybe they always did. But were they ready for it? They're lives were about to change, weren't they worried? Maybe... but they were together and that's what mattered.

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..⃗.  𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙧𝙤 𑁍ࠜೄ ･ﾟˊˎ

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And that's it. I don't like that much how it tunred out but I already rewrote the whole ff three times and the blog is due today soo, hope you liked it anyway :joy: :heartbeat: .

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