Where I’ve been...

Hi everyone. As you may have noticed, I’ve recently become less and less active on amino, which is something I apologize for. As a curator I should be making more time for this amino. I’ve talked about it with the mod team to some degree, but I haven’t fully explained myself really to anyone. Therefore I decided to just make one blog open for everyone to see so anyone who wants to know can see.

What have you been doing?

Last week school started back up for me. And I’m also at a part time job. Having to balance the two has been difficult and stressful, especially since my job is moving locations so that’s put a lot of extra stress in my workplace. Whenever I get home I’m always really anxious and the last thing I want to think about it talking to more people, especially once I’d been gone for a bit. I love all of you, but being extremely stressed doesn’t put you in the best of moods.

I’ve also started up my own YouTube channel, which has been my dream for quite a while. I only post once a week, yet fitting that into my schedule has been hectic and taken up a lot of the time I’d normally spend on Amino. I do Kpop unboxings so it wasn’t anything I could share here since it wasn’t really relevant. But I never had the intention of “replacing” Amino with youtube. However Youtube became easier for me, since I’m just alone in my room whereas with Amino there’s a lot going on at any given time.

How have you been dealing with all that?

Probably not a question most of you have, but it ties in with what’s going on. Around March this year I started experiencing anxiety. Episodes of panic attacks started happening in stressful situations, or at seemingly random times. However since I’ve been back at school my anxiety has hit an all time high and the last four nights I’ve had at least one episode each day. Anxiety is a difficult thing to deal with, especially since I’m still learning how to live with it. For obvious reasons, that’s affected my time online.

So what’s next?

As of right now, there’s still so much I want to do as a curator of this wonderful community. I intend to continue curator duties alongside the rest of my mod time along with continuing to help run the teams that I’m in. However, with all of the outside factors it’s difficult for me to give guarantees anymore. If I need to step down or take a break at any point I’ll announce it/discuss it with my teams and the mod team. Because I don’t want to let you guys down and leave you in the dark.

I know that I’ve probably disappointed some of you, and for that I’m sorry. I wish I could say that I’ll be back better than ever and active twice as long, but that’s not realistic. If you’re able to, I ask that we’re both able to move foreword with kindness and patience for one another. We’re all human beings, and we’re all Mixers. I hope every one of you has a wonderful day/night. Thank you for making this Amino one of the best experiences and communities I’ve been a part of in my life. No matter what happens I’ll never forget that.

- Amelia