When Myself Isn't Enough (vent)

Today was my sister's cheerleading show. What started as a fun event became a really intense experience that made me go through some nasty emotions, of the self-hatred kind to be exact.

Right now I feel like I wasted my life. I'm envious of everyone around me: The ones who aren't loners like me.

I'm here wondering what the fuck did I do all these years instead of looking for friendship. No matter how much I try to convince myself otherwise, I'm the real culprit in all of this; the real reason why I'm a lone fuck is me.

So much for finding my worth by myself instead of relying on other people... Ugh...