The me inside of me

So I have a question, why do I hide myself away? I mean my family doesn't know my secret and I want to tell them but the mold they all cast does not fit me. They are all fit and are smarter then me, why does being normal mean I can't be me? I even named the inner me Valerie Anderson and the only person who knows is my best friend, Valerie likes all the things I like but owns her truth. Why can I not be her