More than just house numbers

Hey there

This was a very long poem I wrote that was inspired by Ed Sheeran's Castle On The Hill.

May contain dark themes, so please be aware of them while reading.

House 36

My childhood was here

I had no reasons to fear

For my safety

As I was protected by my grandparents

Who told stories of their childhoods and innocence

There were meet up with relatives every Lunar new year

The memories I cherished and hold dear.

House 46

I was innocent, I was naive

Waiting for my mum to come home from work on the staircase

While my dad and brother was upstairs

Playing with some Red Toy Cars.

House 115

Off we went to a different country

Where everything was new and pretty

I had friends, then I turned around and they were all gone

I was left all alone.

House 46

Back I went, changed my schools

I was too quiet, the weird kid amongst a bunch of fools

Yet, I still had friends, who were as weird as one another

I considers them my friends, brothers and sisters.

Apartment unit 52

I had grown to be assured of my self worth

Year 12 and uni was the best times ever

Yet, there's a nagging voice inside my head

Coming out of the closet already, there should not be a reason to dread

Yet after gay marriages were legalised,

There was the Orlando Massacre.

Scared for own safety, I hid

Skipped meals, scarred wrist and dreams were shattered

I pulled myself from this endless pit of self-hatred and pity

It was a time when Black Veil Brides helped me

To have hope again

Then Trump happened, I was scared out of my wits, frightened of what will happen

The Sun still shined

And all seemed fine

I attended my first pride in 2016

I suppose, #Lovewins

House 46

I came home for the holidays

After my first year of uni

Overseas

My results were terrible, I despaired

I saw no reason to be here or there

Yet, I lived on, to write this today

There's a feeling of thankfulness that I feel I should pay

But sometimes, dysphoria hits me

Like a train running at top speed towards a wall

To be rid of my boobs, and to cut off my hair

To carve out this empty feeling inside me

And to finally be free.

When did I become so mad, deranged and insane?

I don't know, but I guess all the best people are.

Maybe, I'll go to hell

But maybe I don't want heaven, anyway.

#MelanieMartinez

#TroyeSivan

#BlackVeilBrides

#EdSheeran

#KickThePj

Okay yeah

Stay strong, safe, and just be you, everyone!

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