mild vent, read at own risk

sometimes, i have days where i just can't stand the sound of other people talking, or even just my own voice. today is such a day, and before i was able to just ignore it, but now i just can't. but allow me to explain?

luckily i'm not in school anymore and currently on a break, so this weird thing doesn't actually become problematic, but it does stop me from seeing or even just calling my friends, or listening to voice messages, OR just singing, because i can't... i just can't hear voices. any voices. there's something so ... disturbing about them on days like this, and that prevents me from hearing anyone talk, because i just can't, it bothers me so much for no reason

i know for a fact that i'm the only one in my family and friend group who has this, and it bothers me. i also know that it may be because of an undiagnosed mental thing, according to my first and last (kinda) therapist. but i won't be able to actually get a check-up on my mental health until i'm 18, which IS in a few months, but it's still so long.

i don't even know anymore, today is a horrible day and it bothers me so much because i was doing just fine the past weeks. now i just want to disappear, or at least just be able to talk to my friends because that usually helps me when i'm not doing okay, and i can't even do that

i just want to talk to someone, anyone