Midnight thoughts pt10

TW - Mild context of depression

Lets say heaven and hell were real. Yes I am talking about this again. But not like last time. This is about death, per say. They say “we” are all “sinners” all sinners go to hell, yay. Right?

But the theory is that every ones hell, is their own, its personal. We wouldn't be seeing each other because it'd like being trapped in a cell of our own making.

What happens then is that they (being the devil) would then seek out you worst or biggest fear, your biggest regret. Anything they could then “torture” you with. Say, you're biggest fear is death itself. They would then torture you in a way that would constantly bring you on the brink of death but it never happened and then it plays that on repeat for eternity.

Or you're scared of spiders, they'd put you in a room with the deadliest. Would you get used to them eventually? Or would it reset, over and over, so you could never get over it, never face it. Would they find something new to attack, something more personal. A breakup, a jealous moment. Loosing someone.

So I'm going to be depressing for a moment

What if your biggest fear was living? What if you had gone through life, ed on, wishing never to have another, never to step foot on earth again. How would that then work? What if you have been put through so much, that hell could not make it any worse, only it just didn't get better. Would you then become reincarnated? To live another life on earth? But then what? Even if that was possible, as it is said, you would not a past life, maybe parts where you have deja-vu, but you wouldn't being afraid to live.

You're not at rest, but you wouldn't even know that. It's a weird concept that maybe I am thinking too much about. Every ones experiences are different, would we see people? Would we see no one? Would we see the grim reaper, the angel of death? Or is it just darkness, like falling asleep and never waking up. To simply not exist and have no conscious of it.

If it is layers, then well. It can't be that bad when all my gays will be there, it'll be a party.