Living with bipolar disorder #mentalhealthawareness ♡

Hey, I am bipolar.

And living with bipolar disorder is having incomprehensible mood swings that exhaust you mentally and physically.

There are the manic episodes:

When you have a false sense of happiness ...you can't stop moving as you're too energetic and you're talking too much, too fast and without any sense ..

Your mind is going one hundred miles an hour and you can not stay still...

Your head...it seems like it's going to explode due to all the confusing thoughts and how fast they through...

And so come the voices that scream and do not stop ..

In that moment you start to panic because you're so exhausted and in need for silence and peace but it won't stop...you just need it all to go away...

QUIET! STOP!

you scream

...but it never works... and you know it.

All you can do is cry, become aggressive and shut people out.. Waiting for it to end.

And the depressive episodes:

You feel like life has been completely sucked out of your body ... You do not have enough strength to walk, to talk, and many times you can't even cry. And in those rare moments you manage to get out of bed, that place where you're stuck, you go around dragging yourself...

The voices inside your head constantly saying that you are nothing, that you are not enough and that you have to die ...

All the sounds, lights, movements..everything bothers you and burns your eyes.. You just want to disappear, so you close yourself in a room in the dark...either crying or looking at a wall, completely numb, with a dark sinking feeling in your chest.. An unbearable emptiness.

And in both of these episodes occurs something called derealization and depersonalization ...In the first case you feel that neither you nor anything around you is real and in the second case , you have an out of body experience, and feel like you're looking at yourself from above. And both of these are so incredibly dangerous, because anything you say or do, any harm you may cause to yourself or others will not hurt anyone... Because you're not real...

Nothing is real.

Now imagine all of this but jumping up and down... from one episode to another in a matter of seconds and several times a day ...or having an episode last for days on end...it also happens.

This is my story... There are other levels and symptoms that I know of but I'm just describing my own

I have diagnosed bipolar disorder

And I'm writing this to all of you who are also in pain, either it being diagnosed or not, you are not alone and you can get through this... With help and medication you can enjoy life again.... I promise ♡

And this is also for those of you who want to know more... And for the ones who use "I'm bipolar" as a joke... Believe me.. It is not a joke.

Stay strong my loves

We'll win this fight!

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