I own you.

this is written in a kinda metaphorical way and like its complicated and I don't want this to give off the wrong message or intention

I can't believe that in a way I own you

You're not even mine well not anymore

Yet I hold so much control over you

When I say jump you say how high

You do what I tell you to with no hesitation

You don't complain or talk back to me

You look at me like I'm your whole world

As if I'm the reason you're breathing

As if I own you

But you're not my puppy, my servant or whatever you would like to call yourself

You are your own person

Yet you find so much comfort in feeling owned

It makes you feel safe and loved

I make you feel safe and loved

Something you haven't really experienced much in the past

But sometimes I think this is wrong

There are other ways to fill that emptiness you've longed to fill without being owned

Don't get me wrong, I love being the one in control

I'm scared to set you free from my power

You're scared to be set free

I'm all you have and you're all I have

In your eyes I hold all the power

Your life depends on me and only me

I have control over every aspect of your life

That's what you associate love with

You think being loved means being owned

I've been there before

My entire life used to be controlled by someone

Someone I thought I loved

In many ways she treated me just as I treat you

I did everything little thing she told me because in my eyes, my life belonged to her

My purpose in life was to serve her

I was nothing without her

She'd beat me to pieces but I'd be the one to apologize

I associated those actions with love

But in reality she never loved me at all and I never loved her either

Now it's been years since I've took my life back from her

My relationship with her will never be the same

She will always be the prison guard and I'll always be the prisoner

The power she had over me will haunt me forever

The thought of being owned by someone fills me with anger

But you know what they always say, the abused becomes the ab

Now I never believed in that back then because I could have never imagine myself treating someone the way she treats me

But I was so wrong

Now I'm nothing but a toxic, manipulative, control freak.

I live for the feeling of being in control

I treat everyone the way she treated me because that's really all I know

That's how I was taught to treat people I love

Most people don't want to be controlled

But you're not like everyone else

You crave the security and love you feel from being controlled

Nobody ever owned you before

Nobody ever told you what to do

Nobody ever took cared of you

You were always lost, craving for the control and safety you've never felt before

Because to you that's what love feels like

But what I'm doing is wrong

You don't belong to me, you are not mine.

You aren't just someone I can manipulate for my own gain

The relationship between us is such a fucked up thing

Everyone else sees it but us

One day we might see it too

Who knows what will happen to us then

Just that you are your own person

I can't take that away from you, nobody can.

If you find the courage to escape

Just know I'll still love you the same.