HUMAN.....

I take pride on being a very strong woman..but I too am very human..

Its been over 40 days since I've had my neck bones replaced and I am too sensitive to narcotics they make me deathly ill & deplete my red blood platelets.. Which exhausts me.. I'm so very freaking frustrated right now. . I feel like screaming.

...but I'm simply too composed for that at least in any true public display. It's the gap between being accepted and being different.. I absolutely hate my own weaknesses.. Crazy I know but I do. I've been fighting for all things non narcotic patches for my (Hunch back as I repher to it bone.. As they had to core it out to rebuild 2 bones / vertebraes in my in C2C3 which had completely diminished due to a bone disease I have. (that accompanies my anklizingspondolosis & Rheumatoid & Osteopenia-Osteoporosis & Red Platelet Anemia ) Granted I'm no spring Chick but I am one that has always had a high tolerance for pain..but loosing my composure isn't something I'm comfortable with as I've had to be tough ..keep my chin up..

Today I just really don't want to burden ppl but i need to talk....I hope that's okay..

Sorry..