Even more agony

This isn't really a vent it's more of an observation, but I've noticed since around my birthday last year I've been having a really hard time feeling connected with people. This includes forming connections with new people and connections I already have. I've been talking less and less and just keeping to myself, which I know isn't very healthy but I just feel so weird and numb. Part of me still craves that closeness but I'm worried I can't have that anymore. Sorry for the rant I'm just driving myself insane right now :broken_heart: