Continuum

Trigger Warning: Depression/Death

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I’m constantly on the move. Running from what seems to be a fragment of myself. A part of me I’ve tried to bury far beneath the thick layers of skin that consume me. Buried away with all the parts of me that don’t quite make sense to me yet.

As I run, taking refuge from myself... I feel parts of me slipping through the cracks of what I thought I left behind. Every step I take, a part of you whispering through my shadows.

I try to stay calm, but the pain you inflict is more than one can bare. No matter where I go you always seem to find me... catching up before I can catch my breath. Continuously leaving fear in my pounding heart. It’s like a maze, and I’m all alone.

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Nobody ever listens to me. Everyone says it’s all in my head. They tell me to calm down. Which means I’m constantly left to face you all alone. I don’t know where else to go. I’m tired of running aimlessly. I’m tired of trying to suppress your deafening voice. When will it end?

Sometimes I feel I’d be better off dead. That way I’d be free of your intrusive thoughts. I want to reclaim my life again... but every time I get a firm footing, you come back to remind me why I’ll never be sane.

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