🏳‍⚧ Coming Out Story 🏳‍ :rainbow:

#MyPrideStory

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This is going to be a little long, so please forgive me. I never really actually tell people my road to self discovery, but I decided to. Only because I want to start engaging with the community and share my story with others.

My thoughts are also all over the place. So my words are probably disorganized or don’t make sense, I don’t know.

Honestly? I don’t when I realized I wasn’t cis or het. It might’ve been in my childhood, but a lot of my memories are fuzzy.

But the memories I DO are me getting upset when I wasn’t placed with the boys during gym class, hoping that I would suddenly become a boy once I reached puberty, stuff like that.

I was disappointed to find out puberty didn’t work like that, though :skull: I really wish it did.

Most of my friends my whole life were other boys, as I felt I connected with them more. I was never into dolls, makeup, or other traditionally feminine things. I was always more into dinosaurs, video games, and pretty much all of the guys I was friends with always accepted me as one of them.

It started to click once I turned 14, which was YEARS ago. At the time, I identified as genderfluid, but only because my dysphoria fluctuated and I had internalized misandry. I was questioning my sexuality as well, and identified as bisexual.

Shortly after, I went to go live with my sister. She was not ive at all despite claiming she was, and it was around that time that I started to identify as agender (for the same reasons as above).

She always told me I was “too young” or “school was more important” and that “she knew me better than I knew myself” which I knew were lies, she was always known as a liar and toxic person.

Long story short, living with her didn’t work out. A few years ago after FINALLY getting away from her, I started to question myself some more since I was finally able to do so without being silenced about it.

I have come to with the fact that I’m a Greyasexual/Greyromantic trans man, who is also exclusively attracted to men. Tbh, I still suffer from a lot of internalized transphobia/homophobia, but where I am now has definitely helped me finally be comfortable with who I was always supposed to be.

My family (excluding my sister) is very well aware of my identity as a trans man, but I haven’t told them about the other things yet. They’ve been fairly ive and try to correct themselves when they accidentally misgender or deadname me, and I give them credit for trying.

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