Hi! How are you? Haha this feels awkward to write on here again after such a long absence... I almost feel out of place coming back here, which is perfectly fine with me. Things like these will forever change when you leave and comeback :,)
For a while one thing has been on my mind that makes me question, "can I really call myself as an ahgase?" I've struggled with this because I feel like there's this standard of what's expected as a fan to a group. Personally I find this hard to word alone...? I guess I can say that my as a fan isn't enough to even call myself a fan?
Although it wouldn't be right for me to use this as reason why I haven't been on here in a long time because is isn't entirely the reason why I went absent for so long.
Personally deep within me I've felt that I've fallen out of love them? I hope this makes sense. I think the best way to word it is I've been losing interest in them. I struggle alone with the concept of writing with them in stories. Which is like my entire is basically made of! :,) Perhaps you can call this infatuation? Then again it's been years since I've been with the boys...
Anyways, I doubt many people will read this, but if you did and is still here I want to say I hope you'll have a good day!
Comments (8)
1. There is no standard for being a fan of anything. You follow, you enjoy, you decide. No one can demand a specific behavior or necessity for liking something. You do you.
2. I feel like the group you follow is a bridge or someone holding your hand, when you need it. After going for a long while, you will become unaware of them or even let go slowly. Nothing bad about it, it just happens, I guess?
For 2. I've never thought about it that way before with idols, I really like that a lot how you explained it :,) I'll that!
Reply to: Just_Beom :tm:
:green_heart: it's the way you once loved your teddy bear or favorite TV show. It will always remain special to you, but never have the same feeling or power it had back then. Still, love to them :)
Doesn't really matter if you call your Ahgase or not. Doesn't really matter if you don't love them now as before , doesn't really matter if want to Stan them anymore or not. If you love any other group, it's still not a big deal. The thing that really matters is ARE YOU OKAY?? ARE YOU OVERTHINKING?!? ARE YOU HAPPY AND WELL? ARE YOU HEALTHY?!? don't worry about anything. You are doing great sweetie X
Aww thanks hun :,) Haha felt like you've just read my mind with the "ARE YOU OVERTHINKING?!?" :joy: To answer your questions - I'm okay! Always gonna be an over thinker unfortunately... I'm happy and well! Yes I am healthy, thank you for asking! :two_hearts:
Reply to: Just_Beom :tm:
I. Am. Always. Here. To. . You. And. Love. You. Forever. No matter where we live how far we are. We are still connected :blush:
I get what you mean and it must be confusing to think about it :pensive: I mean sure you can lose interest in a group I also lost it on some groups, but I can also understand that you don't wanna just leave then behind after being part of the fandom for so long.
If you really think tho you don't wanna be an ahgase anymore you shouldn't force yourself to be one. You can still be an ahgase without giving full to the boys, you can just love them for who they are and what they do :green_heart:
Aww dani 🥺 I really appreciate that a lot! I guess I spend wayy too much time on thinking about this :sweat_smile: