no more let downs: WritersEvent

Annyeong Ahgases

                                This is Sila g in

                                for the latest club

                                project! For this

                                project it was really

                                hard for me to into

                                the mood but when

                                I did I didn’t stop writing :muscle: 🏻

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Theme: Tragic/Sad

Prompt : “Obstacles are the cost of greatness”

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I never lived up to that standard. You know

what I'm not doing okay, people look up to

me and tell me that I’m their role model.

But that brings me pressure, I need to be

happy for them and not for me anymore.

I just want to hide from the world and stay

in my room.

There would be moments in my life where I

would see myself floating away from my

body, and that terrifies me that one day that

I will not stop floating away from by body.

The repoture of my subconscious would

always stay a surprise to me.

“The reason why I pressure you is because

part of me knows that deep down I am still

in love with you. And I know we were forever

ago but it still sucks, Grace. It really sucks. “

“Yug... it's time to let me go.”

Tears would wield up in my eyes once again

as I acknowledge the truth once again. My

head would hang low and my hands were

brought up to my face again. My knees collapsed

and I stared into the concerte street below me.

I let out a fake laugh and my lashes would

no longer hold my tears anymore. Everything

comes crashing on me. The memories we

had made together. It just wasn’t fair for me

to be feeling this way. But I am the only one

who could.

She was dead, my mind just created her as a

ghost to cope with her disappearance. As I

looked up Grace was no longer there and what

replaced her was a gust of cold air. I gathered

myself and got up, dusting the debris off my

jeans. There was a small crowd that gathered

around me murmuring amongst themselves.

I brushed them off and headed back to the

company. Only time could heal the wounded

that were bestowed upon me.

As I reached for the practice room doors I

could hear my 6 companions on the other

side. Their laughters bounced around the

walls with their carefree auras. Taking a deep

breath I turned the handle and their voices

fell short. My head rose up and followed it

with a smile.

They rushed around me and greeted me back

to the dance room. Our leader stayed in the

corner with an assuring smile and nodded

to me. A month away from this room really

took its toll on me. My stamina wasn’t as

great as it used to me, however it took my

mind off the realities of my thoughts. I could

see her once again in the corner of the room

cheering us on with the huge smile that got

me attracted to her once again.

That was the day I almost caved into my feelings.

Sometimes there were going to be moments

where I would be staring out into the city in

our van and think of her again but my first love

had already died 3 years ago, she would forever

have her place in my heart, never forgotten.

But now in my 6th year as an idol that was the

largest obstacle that allowed me to rise into

greatness. Thank you Grace, hope you enjoy

my performance tonight.

               Signed, your one and only love

               Yugyeom