This is probably alien to you all

I most likely will be the expectation to the rule with this one but i figured i would express it and explain my reasoning nevertheless,perhaps someone can understand where i’m coming from or even relate

I am someone who craves social interaction especially given it’s something i’ve never had high access to been staved off and frankly just being a hyper extrovert,i like to be with people i like to be around people.

But i need to be honest with myself and others by saying texting has never or rarely ever done that for me,heck these days i’d say i find 95% of text conversations more chore or a job than a social event that you think would energise me but in actual reality does the complete opposite it drains me almost like subtitling the real thing for someone fake

I always felt the problem with text is that i could never express myself fully or be myself and show people who i really am which in truth is still accurate,but i feel there is another type of side to the coin that i’ve never really come to with either

Honestly having a text conversation with another person to me doesn’t really feel much different than talking to an AI bot…*nervously laughs* no really,maybe it’s the whole is there a real person behind those messages behind that screen.

Obviously there is (well in 98% of cases) but the interaction itself feels artificial for me,like heck i rarely ever use ai or chatbots as like with real human text conversations i just find them tiresome i’d almost say that can be just as if not more entertaining than most text convos i have with people

Does this have to do with my social adeptness? Maybe my autism or other mental deficiencies and disorders i have? Perhaps they play apart but i don’t think that makes my feelings and experiences any less valid

I’ve always been someone who prefers a call,who prefers face to face,even more recently voice notes as growing up on the platforms i used they simply weren’t accessible or socially acceptable

But i guess this comes back to the “chore/job” comment from earlier,most interactions i’ve had over the years on the internet (given i was servely limited in social interactions irl) never really reached the “call” stage of sorts which just leaves me feeling unfurfilled or more or even if we crossed that bridge it was a rare once in a blue moon or one off thing that gave me a taste of what i wanted but never the full package

Now this isnt me saying i’ve never enjoyed a text conversation,wether it be fun and bubbly or a engaging discussion or even a more serious and deep heartfelt one but more often than not they just feel extremely tedious boring unengaging and unstimulating to me

Again i am most likely the only person in the world that feels that way because i certainly feel alien to feel that way but that’s just how it is