infinite intermission

Whizzer made Marvin feel...well... wonderful. After their two year split, they really grew and now knew how to be in love without all the toxic traits from before. Marvin felt like he could never love anyone else other than the man with the perfect eyes, amazing fashion sense, and just to top it all off, the best hair he's ever seen.

Everything about the man just drew him in. He was glad that they ended up getting back together after Jason's baseball game. But after all of this bliss, he was now paying the price...

Really, it seemed unfair. Why Whizzer? Why him? Why did he have to be plagued with this sickness that doctor's didn't even have a name for yet! There was nothing they could do. It tore Marvin apart. He felt like he was sinking in a dark, dark bottomless pool and forgot how to swim.

Some nights while laying next to his sleeping boyfriend he would hear yet another man letting out painful sobs at the loss of his boyfriend. He knew that some day, he would be the man sobbing over his own lovers death.

He blamed himself for this.

How was he not supposed to blame himself? He was the one that broke up with Whizzer all those years ago. He wished he could just go back to then. He would give /everything/ up to go back and stop himself from kicking Whizzer out.

Maybe then the love of his life wouldn't be in a hospital bed, many tubes flowing different liquids into his body, without even a sign of hope. He knew what was coming. They both knew.

Then, the day came.

At first, Marvin just felt numb. He felt no emotions whatsoever. No reaction to Whizzers death. He just heard constant white noise as the doctors tried to save him. As they explained to him that he was gone. He watched them take his body out, frozen to his seat. He just felt- empty. His loved ones told him the cliche 'Im sorry for your loss' or 'He was a great person'. He didn't care. Didn't listen.

Then it was finally the day of the funeral. That's when it all finally settled in. He saw his boyfriend's lifeless body just lying there in the beautiful casket. He was still beautiful, but he looked so cold. He sobbed like he never sobbed before once he saw him. He felt like a child, clinging onto the body of the man. He mumbled things along the lines of, "Whizzer, please wake up...baby, please...I can't do this without you." into his sobs. People tried to comfort him the best they could, but it didn't work.

He stayed behind at Whizzers grave after everyone left. He sat infront of the headstone, reading over and over what it said. 'Whizzer Brown January 12th 1947-November 22nd 1981'. Marvin wiped away his tears and set down a single rose.

"It isn't over. Let's call it: an infinite intermission."

ok I hope you liked that ahh I'm trying to get better at writing:) the song vanilla curls by teddy hyde inspired this it's a bop and that's like my favorite line