A small freak-out rant~

Hey ho!

I have to write this down now or I will lose my mind, so sorry in advance for the fangirl-freakout blog that's about to happen...

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For those who do not know: tomorrow Exo will be performing at the KBS music festival in Berlin. And for those of you who don't know this either: I am from Berlin, I was born here and lived my whole life in this city. So of course I had to buy a ticket and will now see Exo live...

Did you hear (read) that?

I will see f***ing Exo live!!!

I never would have thought that that would ever happen to me (like probably every european Exo-L) and now they're not only in Europe but in my city...urgh

As if that wasn't enough to freak out about, I saw the pictures of them leaving for Berlin today...and I went insane immediately. Only in that moment it really hit me that in just a little time these eight (unfortunately not nine) heavenly human beings will land at the airport I frequent several times a year, they will drive and walk in the streets I have known my whole life and they will breathe the same polluted, smelly air as me. I don't know why that is affecting me so much but it is!

For a brief moment I even considered going to the airport but I never liked those fans that constricted their idol's privacy, so I would never really do that. But the temptation is soooo big ^^

If I am freaking out to this extent already today, I don't know what will happen to me tomorrow~

To top it all of I am really sick at the moment and I have huge problems with breathing...I jokingly thought I would hyperventilate tomorrow because of the excitement but it seems I will have to seriously watch out not to hyperventilate for real and making everything worse...

I don't know what to do right now since my original plan was to binge watch Exo and Taemin content to prepare myself

pfff as if I could prepare myself for that

But it seems to make my freak out even worse~

I don't know how everyone is dealing with this. Especially the K-Exo-L who see them quite often. I am a nervous wreck for weeks now because this is my first real comeback (after cbx) and every little thing is killing me and then came all those MVs in the last three weeks and "Young" ist still killing me and what the fuck is happening with Sehun and Chanyeol? Can they please not? On top of it all they decided to drop these damn MLB promo videos and pics one at a time, giving me a heart attack every time one drops...this is just too much...

At this point I seriously consider writing my testament before tomorrow...

Hopefully we will see each other again. If not, if I die blissfully in the Exo-L-ocean, I instructed my boyfriend to the pics I will make at the concert, so you will have something to me for~

Good bye :wave:

I am sorry for this melodramatic outburst