Nightmares again? [Yoongi One-Shot]

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Genre: Angst,Fluff

Word Count: 1.8 K

Warnings: Mental Health Issues

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You opened your eyes after your body had sat up on your bed. Your hand went to your chest as you breathed heavily, desperately trying to catch your breath. Not even three seconds later, you heard footsteps getting closer. The door to your room opened, revealing a very concerned Yoongi.

“You alright?” he asked even though he already knew the answer, deciding that keeping the lights off was the best option so you could go back to sleep afterwards.

You quickly nodded, trying to smile so he wouldn’t worry. Of course, he knew better.

He got inside, sitting by the end of your bed.

“I heard you shout” he informed you, and you lowered your head in response. “Nightmares again?” you nodded.

It was always the same one. You were trapped inside a dark room, not being able to see anything, it felt like some kind of void and you only grew more and more desperate by the second. And then water started coming out of nowhere, flooding the room in such a way it was slow enough for you to run to every damn corner helplessly trying to find a way out, yet fast enough for you to run out of time and start drowning. You always woke up the second before you got unconscious.

Your breathing steadied a little bit, and that’s when you finally looked at him.

“I’m sorry I woke you up” you mumbled. He shook his head, frowning. Was that really what you were worried about now?

“It’s okay,” he reassured you. “I wasn’t sleeping anyway” he let you know. And it was true. The past week he had been having trouble falling asleep. Plus, that night specifically he had been having a hard time with a few of his songs, some of them were just not feeling right. So, he was not going to fall asleep anytime soon.

You just stared at him for a few, not being able to bring yourself to even answer to that, and he couldn’t help but notice how lost your gaze seemed. Mental issues were no news to you, having dealt with them your whole life – but the past month they had for some reason only gotten worse and worse. That being the reason your older brother, Seokjin, had decided you were staying with him and his friends for a while, until you were better. He knew you needed noise and movement around you – leaving you alone with your thoughts was the worst that could happen to you, so why would he leave you alone in your single apartment when they had a spare room in the dorms?

You just wanted it to stop. You hated feeling like you were disturbing them. Sure, they had all agreed on having you stay with them, they all said it was okay. But was it? Or did they feel obliged to agree just because you were their hyung’s younger sister? You wanted nothing but to get better so you could go back to your apartment and leave them alone, but it was not that easy, it was not something you could control. You had these kind of episodes from time to time, it was nothing new, and it also took time for you to get better. That’s why you were so sick of it, you couldn’t just come stay here every fucking time it happened and disrupt their lives.

“Thanks for checking up on me, Yoongi” you truly thanked him. “You can go back to your life now”.

His eyebrows furrowed once again. “You’re sure you’re okay?”

Looking to the side to avoid eye , you shrugged.

“Y/N, you know you can talk to me, right?” he pushed, moving his face so he could lock his eyes with yours again.

Yes, you knew. All seven of them had always been there for you, making you feel like, apart from Jin, they were your brothers, too. But with Yoongi it was different – it had always been. He just… understood. He knew how to treat you, how to talk to you in a way you felt normal. Whilst everyone did their best trying to cheer you up, he just let you express yourself. He didn’t judge you, he didn’t question you; and for that you were utterly grateful.

“I’m just… sorry I keep crashing into your guys’ lives like this” you said honestly, biting the inside of your lip. “I’ve told Jin so many times he doesn’t need to bring me here every time this happens, it must be so exhausting for you all. And now apparently I’m screaming during the nights?” you scoffed, feeling done with yourself. You could’ve woken up anyone. “I just…” you let out a deep sigh, trying to find the right words to express what you really felt like “I’m just a burden on everyone”.

His heart shrunk at that. He hated the self–despising image you had of yourself. He hated it. And he wished he could do anything to make you know how valuable you were – just how precious you were in his eyes.

Getting closer to you, he placed his hand in your chin and turned your head so you were facing him again.

“You are not a burden on anyone, okay?” his strong stare on you sent shivers down your spine. “We all have our bad times when we feel like everything is falling apart and need someone by our sides, yours just come a little more periodically than the rest and it’s totally okay” he gave you a weak smile. “And, being quite honest, I’m relieved Jin brought you here because I get to personally check up on you and see how you’re doing”.

You didn’t mean to, but his words really touched you and you were already vulnerable, so silent tears started making their way down your cheeks before you realised it. Once again, you tried to look away, but he was faster, cupping your face in his hands and wiping your tears. Just by seeing your face he knew you were about to break down, which is why he pulled you to him, allowing you to hide your face in the crook of his neck, finally letting it all out the moment you felt his arms wrap around you.

He stayed silent, knowing you just needed someone to rely on, to be there for you. You were so glad it was him the one who heard you and went to comfort you; if it would’ve been any of the other guys they would’ve either tried to cheer you up or straight up not know what to do. Yoongi just listened to you and spoke nothing more than the right words, knowing that was enough for you not to feel alone.

After a few minutes, your sobs came to an end. One of his hands went to your hair, stroking it while his other hand remained firmly placed on your back.

“You want me to go now so you can get back to sleep?” he asked in a whisper. He had felt your breathing become calmer, making him think you were starting to fall asleep.

You shook your head no instantly. “I don’t want to sleep” you itted. You were scared you would end up having the same nightmare if you did so. He didn’t question your decision. He knew. He always understood and that was why you liked him so much.

“Would you like to go to my studio then?” that made you sit up straight, looking into his eyes.

“Am I being officially invited into de Genius Lab?” you cocked one of your eyebrows. At that he rolled his eyes, not even bothering to fight the gummy smile forming on his face.

“You better choose your next words wisely, not anyone gets an invitation” you couldn’t help but giggle at that, thinking about all the times the boys would get inside his studio without his permission and how they’d end up being kicked out by him.

“I would love to, thanks” you really didn’t want to be alone, and being in his company wasn’t something you would reject.

That’s how you ended up in his studio at two in the morning, Yoongi drinking the coffee you had quickly gone to make for him before following him to his studio, and you drinking tea and feeding him some of Jin’s cookies you had stolen from the kitchen. His eyes were fixed on his computer, immersed in his own little world given inspiration had for some reason hit him that late at night.

By three am, you were sat on his lap, the two of you wrapped under a blanket while looking at his computer. His headphones were on your ears, wanting to show you a few of his songs so you could give him your opinion – which he deeply cared about.

And by four in the morning, the two of you were fast asleep on the little couch placed in the room. Your head resting on his chest and one of his arms protectively rounding your figure. It was safe to say you slept peacefully the rest of the night – no signs at all of that damn nightmare that had been tormenting your sleep.

That was the first night of many you would spend in his studio. It was good for the both of you – you would have him keep you company during your sleepless nights, making you feel safer, and he would get someone to show his creations to, along with some extra inspiration. Most importantly, the two of you would be able to fall asleep at some point, getting a good night sleep even if it was for a few hours. However, those nights at his studio stopped being enough at some point and they turned to days there, too.

At first the guys thought nothing of it, finding it a bit odd that you would spend so much time together in his studio but, then again, the two of you had always had a special bond no one dared to point out. Nevertheless, when you were better enough to go back to your place, and you were still seen almost daily at the dorms or he was seen leaving them to go to yours, it kind of hit them.

Jin saw you one day introducing the to Yoongi’s lab with a smile on your face while holding takeout, and after hearing his friend’s cheerful voice calling you a cute name the moment you entered, he knew why the two of you had seemed happier ever since a few weeks back. And he couldn’t be happier himself; knowing his sister and one of his best friends had each other to rely on, especially when times got difficult and no one else seemed to fully understand.

#LC

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