how far?

"I thought I was getting close to her yet I just pushed her away from me. I thought I was getting her out from the mistakes while I was drowning her in mine. I imagined her wearing my jacket but now she's wearing his,,, just because of me not giving her the actual glance of care made me lose her forever. I just let her go like she was nothing and that's the mistake I did at the very beginning of this mess." >>he was telling his story lookin' at the night sky which was really silent.