Inktober day 15, dagger

Day 15 of

#inktober23

#dagger

I thought it would be fun to have a little internal thinking from my boy, Biscuit, as he struggles with his new feelings and tries to work through his confusion.

I also wanted to give a shoutout to my girl Miku for all her through inktober and the ideas she gives me. This post was her idea, and she helped me along the way. Thank you again, my dear.

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I sat and pondered while you laid in bed,

recovering from the horrible accident that

left you shaken and me worried to death.

As I take peeks to gaze upon your sleeping face, I wonder, what is this feeling deep inside that makes me want to hug and hold you, tell everyone that you’re mine. What is this feeling that I feel? It confuses me and scars me. I’m torn between thinking, is it fake, or is it real?

I’m shrouded in jealousy whenever he

gets near you, whenever his hand touches

your ivory skin. When he speaks sweetly

to you, only for you to hear, I want to

tear him limb from limb to obliterate

his existence and make him disappear.

But I know you would hate me because I can see what’s blossoming before my eyes. I don’t want to say it

or even think about it. It’ll be like a

dagger, stabbing me in the heart a million times. Will I lose you to someone

like him? We were the closest friends before he showed up, and we promised forever. But now that he's here, what will become of me? You’ll start to spend more time together, and I’ll be a forgotten dream of yesterday. How long do I have with you if not eternity? I’m confused about who or what I am. Am I like you? Or am I different?

If I kissed you like he did, would it make you forget your own name? Would your cheeks turn rosy pink if I held you in my arms like that? Would you worry about me the same way you worry for him?

As I gaze at your sleeping face, I can’t help but wonder, what is this feeling inside of me?

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