Why do I do this to my characters?

So- essentially- my oc Mina has had it a little rough these days in a roleplay I've been doing for the past 6 months or so. Needless to say- Mina has seen better days... she's not doing the best but hey- she's not dead ^^;; y̶e̶t̶

This is her starting out for quick reference on just how far things have spiraled for her: before the fall

On top of the multiple physical injuries, she has sustained a substantial amount of trauma and a truckload of sadness. Her hair has gotten longer and some ends are splitting/fraying since she has not exactly been maintaining it, and her weight is down from where she started (which wasn't very high to begin with), by about 10lbs.

Hopefully things will get better? ó~ò;;

Inspired to post by this post right here from my partner in crime