Why have I been so lazy?

Hello lovely of AAA! Good question! Why HAVE I been so lazy? I’m not quite sure!!

I tend to not take voluntary breaks from amino because I feel like there’s always something I need to do! And I’m right, there always is something I need to do...

The problem is, I get tired. Sometimes I can’t bring myself to come on here for days, even a week or two at a time, unless to check in and keep my streak. I feel really guilty about this, but I know it’s not something I can promise to just fix. I am not a very good leader, I’m not a very productive person, but I have ion for this community that’s just been dwindling the past little while. I’m not here to just excuse myself and all I have to do, I’m here to address it directly. Below is a list of things I need/needed to do but missed horribly:

Things I didn’t do on time

1.) The July Monthly. I said I’d make up for this for August but...

2.) The August Monthly. I was ashamed when I realized August had already come, I wasn’t even thinking about it.

3.) My August monthly challenge for the event team. I owe them a great apology for not keeping up with my schedule, this is the second time I’ve missed a challenge I was scheduled to do, I need to try harder.

Things I still MUST do

1.) The winning post and tallying for camp. I know I need to do that, I promise I will have it done by the end of August (I know that’s a while but I still need to finish tallying, organize the post, decide the tiers of prizes etc. Because I want this to be great for everyone who earned something)

2.) The establishment of the Tutorial Team. It’s been a long time coming but every artist picked has at least received a message from me! I’ll try harder to get this into fruition soon.

3.) The new Event Team member! We held applications and have yet to decide who it will be, but I’m sure it’ll be figured out soon!

I do feel bad, almost every day, about this. I know that doesn’t mean much, my word is not of equal value with my actions and for that I really am sorry, I just want you all to be aware that I’m not perfect, but I’m still trying, I still want to be here, and I still care about this community.

I haven’t been drawing much this year either, it breaks my heart but I’ve tried to get back into it. Here is a drawing of my my most favourite girl, Madoka Kaname :gift_heart: :heartpulse: :revolving_hearts: :sparkling_heart: :two_hearts: :cupid:

Thank you for reading everyone, and thank you for the amazing opportunity to help run this community, happy drawing everyone :heart:

Ps. I’m almost 100% positive I’ve missed something I need to do, if you know of what it is let me know! :sob: :joy: