Lie - Original

Possible trigger warning.

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I wandered so helplessly that night,

The moon draped my thoughts in its light.

I looked back on who they were, how it’d be.

I dreaded how all the fault was put onto me.

Spiraling down into my own cage of thought,

I couldn’t handle the emotions it had brought.

I dwelled on going back to those summer days,

Where everything felt like it was just a haze.

Those old memories caressed me in their youth,

I yearn to them, seeking the real truth.

But the clouds stir away the plea of the sun’s fight,

As I look over to the clock and shut my eyes tight.

Those scattered books and figures sat with me on the floor,

I felt my cry of not wanting to do this anymore.

But I got up once again, ready for what was to come,

My fingers twitched, fighting the feeling of being numb,

For once I had lied and that had made me into this,

And that night I wandered the streets looking for eternal bliss,

But all I can do is lie in what has been.